to be happy or to be right?

In life, sigh, we just can’t have everything, and in a relationship, we just can’t make it perfect. Yes, we can’t really own somebody, we just can have them for a while…I was in my most crucial stage of my medical history…and i want him to be there, not that his presence will change the results of the physical and laboratory exams but for me to have someone to hold on to, cuz i was becoming weaker and weaker after one test to another. when u under go confirmatory tests, lots of things are rattling in ur mind…what if…what if…unending what ifs…I was looking around, waiting…waiting for him…but he was no were to be found all i have i have is the lil’ kid whom i consider my younger bro and the other one is my badminton buddy…but my mind says- it could and should be him…there were excuses, there were alibis, but non of those touches my hemlines…“kung gusto ng tao gagawan ng paraan, kung ayaw ng tao maraming dahilan”. yes he was texting me every minute asking me if m okey,telling me “im praying for u”, etc… but i wanna hug him, to comfort me, to be there—PHYSICALLY! my goodness! isn’t that hard to understand? sobs…I crossed the “highest mountain” just to see u through when u only have one minor bruise and now that it’s my turn needing u, u can’t even cross the street?…instead of an overnight stay in the hospital…i retreated to my comfy pad…and pour out all my anger, sentiments, whatever, and while crying out my emotions i passed out…i only woke up when i heard beboy(my badminton buddy) laughing while watching tv beside me…then at 11pm when he realized im getting fine he left and i called up my best friend albert, then i poured out all my emotional upsets, after two hours, we have to cut our conversation cuz on the other line “his” mom called me up why “her son” is crying… and we talked but there was a stand off, after an hour of argument, we decided to hang up the phone for each other…then after 12 hours, we came face to face…same hard emotions but in low tone voices, controlled but not subdued…he has valid reasons but for me its not acceptable…there were apologies but its now passe’ and after 2 hours of word war, we now both face each other the premise of “shall we continue this relationship, or not?” and he started kissing me and we made love til the morning came…and now we are face with a one million dollar question…what is more important, to be happy or to be right?